Side Commentary slash Manifesto

I should probably qualify my thought processes.

1. I'm not sure if force is the way to solve everything. My experiences have taught me it isn't. But neither is unyielding kindness nor pure science, religion, or logic. But I do know that struggle is a common theme among all of these. It is the hard work that produces the solution through the various or combinations of means presented.

2. I'm a realistic optimist. I try to carry hope in all things and usually pray that some good will come from the worst. But I am not so foolish to blindly believe that the past can be corrected; or things that are beyond my scope of control are directly influenced by me (but influenced nonetheless). I'm just a neuron in the Mind of God, that fires when asked and intrepretes incoming signals to the best of my ability. A shapechanging cog in the ever changing Great Machine. Not the detached Hand of God that wanders and dose it's own thing or a spinning wheel attached to nothing.

3. On Equality: One could argue that there is no equality. I could probably argue likewise, especially after the lives I have lived. But so long as I live and breathe in the United States, I will fight the the very bitter end to uphold that ideal of equality in the United States. If one race, creed, religion, or gender belives it to be better than the other, then leave. I did not rise up the ranks from poverty to decency to be judged and stifled by the ranks of those who would impede faith, hard work, selfless service, determination, wisdom, and honor.

4. On conquering: Theivery is taking without compensation of any kind. Conquering is almost as bad, but there is compensation (little as it may be). It never settles well if I take over something. Yet, if what I have taken struggles, then I am glad since it shows that there is life in that I have taken. There is an opportunity for growth. If it fought viciously before taking, I hope it continues to fight still; even if in a non-violent way. Respect is garnered from that. And in the end, I hope that it will wrest it's own control of itself, proving it's worth. Not to me, but to the itself. Who am I to judge or take? I'm a capalaist/reformer/militant/fundamentalist with hopes in seeing the world actually reach world peace even if it takes hate to do it. (The last part was sarcasm by the way)

5. On faith: Is there one faith? I don't know. I stopped going to church after I kept getting hit up at the collection plate and then being discriminated against later because I was "that Oriental guy" at the "White Church". But I do know that there is God. How? Try and disprove it. That and after having several near-death experiences, sensing the world (meditation on the subject), not having prayers answered, and looking at particle physics, I have just kinda accepted Him as faith. No deeper meaning, no agnostisism, no blind fundamentalism. Just there. Kinda like static electricity. Every now and then, I kinda feel something build up and occasionally it shoots out, beyond my own volition. Sometimes good, sometimes bad, but always amazing and beyond my control. Fall in love once or three times and you'll get a glipmse of what I'm talking about. And not fall-into-bed-with-a-random-stranger-because-they're-cute love. I mean the stuff where you lose inhibitions because the communication between you and the partner is empathic and suddenly you realize that every moment of every second of every day is being logged because you don't want to forget about it. That kind of love, which makes me wonder about that kind of faith.