People not worth knowing

Odd comments seem to the staple attraction of me these days. Namely because I can't think of anything poignant to say, and quite frankly, a lot of dumb things are said. The thing that absolutely frightens me is not that dumb things are said, but the idioticracy behind what is said. It is as though the thought of mal-intent precedes the very action of what is going to be said. Translation: You were thinking of a bad thing to say or do before you said it; with a way to justify it.

So what's this got to do with people? People talk. Alot. So much so that there is an entire industry of combination self-help / 1-900 porn phone companies just so you can hear every problem to entertaining a vice. People talk to me. Actually they don't. They talk at me. I don't give input anymore because they aren't listening. I have become the emotional trashcan that they have come to know and love. Have a problem: Dump it on me. I Listen. Sorta. Not Really Anymore. I feel like Jerry Springer with laryngitis. See the fools and point, but can't make out the words to describe the carnival.

Now what if dumb things are being said? Not just dumb things, but maligned things shaped to be hurtful. Unintended to be, but they are. Maybe I'm too sensitive to these things. Though not directed at you directly, you know they are aimed at you in a sideways manner. The kind of backhanded comment you laugh at only to stop because you're the only one laughing. It's not truth, just bad press. Or maybe it is truth, but the way it is said makes it hurtful. Better yet, the actions don't match the words but one intends them to. Then is it a lie?

What if the dumb things are a never-ending barrage of really stupid questions? Emotional ones. Nonemotional ones. The kind of questions that have no bearing on what is at hand. The kinds that fritter that ephemeral substance that all of us are always lacking. Not entertaining questions, inquiries, allusions, riddles, or even quests. Just the usual same question that has already been answered but is being second-guessed time and time again because of a lack of faith, clarity, or conviction in the answer that YOU gave to the questioners. The questioners want a different answer than the obvious or the truth... just what they want to hear. It's like begging God to dispose his powers unto you: You know what's going to happen, and it won't change unless you do it yourself.

I love conversation. Intelligent conversation. The stuff where you learn that Jefferson was a bigot and still one of the founding fathers. And then have a discussion on the repercussions. The stuff where you can make fun of what is or will be or what was. Slighted comments are welcome as they are taken with a grain of salt, but be prepared to defend yourself. But more often than not, I see people not able to step outside of their realm of pop-music and videos with their concerns with porn, the Pope, and people. People they want, not people they should know. The very question of morality is lost among them simply because it is too hard to think about and so much easier to fall onto chruch, popularity, or dumb things to say.