Sleeping alot

Funny

I'm typically not one to crash so hard... but when you can't drink, smoke, or even get high... what's the next best thing?

I should get over this, and not be so shallow, but it's not an easy thing: to care.

Even worse is walking away knowing that nothing good will come of it from your perspective.

New post, old Hat

I forgot how much people don't change. I also forgot the value of what I am. Apparently I am not worth much to my friends in that they will chose ass over me. Not surprisingly, I still qualify as a best friend even though ass is far more important than longstanding personal relationships. Heaven forbid that I stand and defend people whom I'm not getting ass from yet watch my other friends get it. I don't think I need to be in this relationship anymore and I believe that moving away is going to fix it. I know that in time I will never speak to these people again; which saddens me. I actually placed value in them only to find out that they are just as worthless as the whole of society. They rely more on the Id than the Superego and throw the relationships of long time cultivation away just to fit their wants. Is this what I am actually seeing?

I wish only for death to myself for knowing these people since I am the only who was foolish enough to fight for them. This has only cemented my belief that there is no woman on this planet worth fighting for. There are no true friends. And there is no such thing as love in any form.